HELLO MY NAME IS EMMA, I AM A SUFFERER OF EATING DISTRESS. THIS PAGE IS DESIGNED FOR YOUNG PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF WHO SUFFER FROM EATING DISTRESS. MY AIM IN STARTING THIS PAGE IS TO HELP YOUNG PEOPLE WITH EATING DISTRESS.MY IDOLS ARE DESTINYS CHILD SO I HOPE TO HAVE PICTURES OF THEM ON MY PAGE. BEYONCE BATTLED WITH HER WEIGHT AND NOW SHE IS PART OF A SUCCSESSFUL,CHART TOPPING GIRLBAND WHO ARE ALL SURVIVORS AND ARE A CREDIT TO WOMEN AND GIRLS! I LOVE THEM! |
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MY STORY MY NAME IS EMMA,I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING FROM EATING DISTRESS FOR TWO YEARS. I WILL TRY TO RELATE MY EXPERIENCE, SO FAR,TO YOU. ALMOST THREE YEARS AGO I WAS A HAPPY TEN YEAR OLD.I HAD ALWAYS BEEN, IN MY EYES,A TALL,CHUBBY CHILD.IT NEVER BOTHERED ME,EVEN THOUGH THE BOYS AT SCHOOL WOULD CALL ME NAMES LIKE FATSO AND MOONFACE.IT ALL CHANGED WHEN I WENT INTO FIFTH CLASS AND I BECAME VERY SENSITIVE TO THE NAME CALLING,WHICH HAD BECOME WORSE.I WOULD GO RUNNING HOME FROM SCHOOL ALMOST EVERYDAY, CRYING MY HEART OUT.I BECAME VERY AWARE OF MY BODY WEIGHT AND I THOUGHT IT WAS TIME TO LOSE WEIGHT. WHEN LENT CAME AROUND THAT YEAR,I DECIDED THAT I WOULD GIVE UP SWEETS.I DID THIS VERY SUCCESSFULLY AND I LOST SOME WEIGHT.I WAS HAPPY WITH THE WEIGHT LOSS BUT STILL NOT HAPPY WITH MY BODY SHAPE.BY THE TIME I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL I HAD LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT BUT I WAS VERY UNHAPPY. I STARTED PLAYING GAMES WITH MY INTAKE OF FOOD.(FOR FEAR OF TRIGGERING SOMEONE'S CONDITION,I WILL NOT STATE HOW I MESSED AROUND WITH MY FOOD) BY NOW PEOPLE WERE NOTICING MY WEIGHT LOSS. I KNEW MY PARENTS WERE VERY WORRIED ABOUT ME BUT I DID'NT CARE,I STILL WAS VERY UNHAPPY WITH MY BODY SHAPE.AT THIS STAGE I HAD LOST CONTROL AND MY EATING DISTRESS HAD TOOK OVER. MY WHOLE DAY WAS TAKEN UP BY FOOD THOUGHTS AND EXCERCISE. BY DECEMBER 2000 I REMEMBER BEING EXTREMLY SAD.EVEN THOUGH I HAD LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT I STILL FELT FAT AND UGLY.MY PARENTS WERE VERY WORRIED ABOUT ME BY THIS STAGE.THEY DID NOT KNOW WHERE TO TURN. THEN THEY WERE GIVEN AN ARTICLE,FROM A NEWSPAPER,ABOUT THE MARINO THERAPY CENTRE. I HAVE BEEN ATTENDING EVERY WEEK FOR THE PAST YEAR AND A HALF.THANKS TO THE LOVING AND CARING TEAM,AT THE CENTRE,I THINK I AHVE GONE THROUGH THE WORST OF MY EATING DISTRESS. I AM NOW GOING INTO SECOND YEAR AND I AM THE HAPPIEST I HAVE BEEN IN THE PAST THREE YEARS. I HAVE MADE LOADS OF FRIENDS,I HAVE GOOD GRADES AND MY CONFIDENCE IS SKY HIGH. THERE ARE BAD DAYS WHEN I FEEL ANXIOUS,FAT AND LAZY AND SOME DAYS ARE SO BAD I WANT TO DIE. I KNOW I HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO TILL I FULLY RECOVER BUT AT LEAST I AM HAPPY! |
BE AWARE DURING MY ILLNESS I HAVE FOUND THINGS THAT MY CONDITION FORCES ME TO DO,SO HERE ARE A FEW THINGS TO BE AWARE OF SO YOU CAN STOP YOURSELF FROM DOING ANYTHING: *FOR THOSE OF YOU STARTING SECONDARY SCHOOL WATCH OUT FOR THE CONDITION TELLING YOU,YOU HAVE TO BE THE BEST AT EVERYTHING. SPEAKING FROM EXPERIENCE IT IS NOT A NICE PLACE TO BE AND IT TAKES THE FUN OUT OF BEING IN AN ENVIROMENT THAT YOU FEEL SAFE IN AND YOU END UP HATING SCHOOL! THANKFULLY I HAV'NT BECAUSE I HAVE STOPPED PUTTING PRESSURE ON MYSELF,BUT IF I DID'NT MAKE THE DECISION TO DO THAT I WOULD DETEST SCHOOL. *IF YOU HAVE NOT SOUGHT ANY PROFESSIONAL HELP ABOUT YOUR ILLNESS YET BE AWARE THAT THE CONDITION WILL TELL YOU,YOU ARE NOT SICK OR SKINNY ENOUGH. RUBBISH! IF YOU SHOW SIGNS OF NEGATIVITY, OR DISTORTED BEHAVIOUR AROUND FOOD, AND ARE NOT HAPPY, GET HELP! *BE AWARE OF WHAT YOU WANT TO DO,NOT THE CONDITION! BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHING OUT OF ANXIETY,THINK,DO I REALLY WANT TO DO THIS? WILL I BE UNHAPPY DOING THIS? THINK OF ALTERNITIVE THINGS YOU REALLY ENJOY DOING,LIKE:READING A BOOK,TALKING,PAINTING YOUR NAILS,LISTNING TO MUSIC,ART, ANYTHING YOU WANT! BE HAPPY! *IF YOU HAVE WORRIES BOTTLED UP INSIDE YOU DON'T BE AFRAID TO TELL SOMEONE! TALKING WILL MAKE YOU FEEL ALOT BETTER ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL. |
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Email:SPARKLING41@HOTMAIL.COM-FOR ANY Q'S YOU WANT TO ASK ME |
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